Let me preface this entry; I feel it deserves some explanation. Since September, I have been dramatically and regularly encountering God in ways I never have before. The Lord has been rapidly changing my heart. I am not alone in this, either. Many of my friends who participated in a bible study I helped lead this past summer have also noticed an incredible uptick in God’s activity. It’s been jarring.
The following poem tries to express the feelings I’ve had for the last month or so. It’s hard to describe God at work. I’ve been in emotional turmoil–my highs are euphoric and my lows are paralyzing. All the while I am clinging to God, trying to understand what He’s doing.
I don’t know how to describe what inspired me to write this poem. I hesitate to call it a vision. It was more like a recurring day dream. I continually saw a father and his son at the beach. Excuse the title; I’ve never been gifted with naming things.
My dear child, if only you knew how God laughs.
So often we hear it, we know he laughs,
but we do not know how.
We fail to see His brilliant joy.
I see a child standing on the water’s edge.
He is afraid, he is on the verge of tears
Because he is young and does not understand
The joy and wonder of the sea.
The child is intimidated by the freedom
that the sea offers to him.
He stands at the water’s edge frozen,
Unable and unwilling to step out.
I see a Father walking up behind the child,
Eyes shining bright, smile growing wide.
His heart begins to race as he looks out
At the shifting waters and the morning sky.
I hear a Father begin to laugh
As His excitement bursts out from His heart.
He cannot contain His joy, and He begins to run
Headlong into the waters which scare the child.
The Father runs past the child,
Outdoing the young one’s youth with His own joy.
The child watches in horror at his Father,
Sprinting directly to the dangerous, unknown waters.
And now the Father is submerged in the water.
And now the child is terrified that He is gone.
And yet the Father resurfaces from the depths,
And yet the Father’s laugh grows louder.
The Father looks back into the eyes of his child,
His own eyes overflowing with wild, free joy.
And the child’s fear is beginning to falter
As the Father runs back to the child.
The Father runs up to His child and without hesitation
Lifts His child into the air.
His smile is infectious, His laugh is contagious
And though the child fears, he is held by the Father.
And the Father is swinging His child around and around,
And He is tossing the child up and catching him.
And the child is forgetting his fear
And the child, too, begins to smile and laugh.
The Father, with child in arms, runs again
Into the shifting waters of the sea.
The child does not protest the charge
As long as he stays in His Father’s arms.
Both child and Father plunge into the water,
The Father’s laugh coming to a joyous roar.
The child now knows why the Father laughs
For he, too, has come to love the sea.
My dear child, if you only knew how the Father laughs.
We hear Him laugh, but we do not see
The shining eyes and widening smile of One
who wants to share His amazing joy with us.
The laugh we hear we think to be malicious.
We fear the Father wishes to throw us into
The chaos and destruction of the shifting waters
And watch us, laughing, as He stands safely on the shore.
My dear child, our Father does not leave us
Alone in the water, nor does He leave us
Alone on the shore. He runs with us,
Charging the waters with us in His arms.
This image of a Father and child at the water
Is but a poor vision of God’s love.
How much stronger is God’s love for His
Precious Beloved, His children of light.
1 Corinthians 13:8-12 “8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.”
The veil is thinning. As we mature we grow to love the sea as our Father does. Bring your children with you. Remember how He laughs.